❝You don’t ask people with knives in their stomachs what would make them happy; happiness is no longer the point. It’s all about survival; it’s all about whether you pull the knife out and bleed to death or keep it in…❞
the fear i feel is overwhelming. i feel like choking like i can’t breath. you know how you feel before the most difficult exams. i don’t know why but i feel like this right now. but difference is that it’s not an exam it’s real life in its’ most wild and cold form.
it’s like i’m holding my present and my future in the palm of my hand but at the same time i feel so hopeless and scared.